do you know

the feeling

when you sometimes feel that you need to forced yourself to overcome the sadness

the feeling

when your life just revolve around you and your career and your art practice

and at times

you feel at peace

calmness

and you feel happy

because when you think about other people's sadness,

its heavier than yours

what they say is true

we can't rewrite the past, what we can do is to choose our own paths

''don't look back - something might be gaining on you'' satchel paige

stay calm

let God decides
be prepared
as the worst has yet to come

tmr i will go shooting
it's been a while

to clear the head
to follow the passion where it brings

God
give me strength

past entries

Love is when the desire to be desired takes you so badly that you feel you could die of it.:::
Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec :::

When we love something it is of value to us, and when something is of value to us we spend time with it, time enjoying it and time taking care of it.::: M. Scott Peck :::


i wish that sometimes i don't feel

mixed

mixed feelings
unexpected
flashbacks

sometimes we have to force ourselves from missing the very person we missed
to push aside feelings that won't go away
to push aside memories that seems to playback
much missed

really
sincerely

and than we will tell ourselves,
why bother?
since the other may not even think of us

it's true what they say,
the very person we loved is the hardest to love

14/2/07

im strong
stronger than who you think i am

a love lost
is not
a life lost

i will stand up on my own
go through shit on my own
go through life with dignity and resilience

because at the end of the day,
it's how you deal with yourself that matters

God
give me the strength that i need
to go through time
of pain and disappointment

give me the will
to take it in my stride

show me the path
that leads to happiness

sometimes, loving someone means letting go

aku mesti kuat

bila emosi cuba mengatasi

Pendirian

Kewarasan

Keceriaan



...berhenti

berfikir



Tuhan ada

hanya dia yang abadi

Every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up."

Pablo Picasso

"Life is a tragedy when seen in close-up, but a comedy in long-shot."

Charlie Chaplin

"...art is not supposed to be just beautiful, appropiate for a setting, or easy. Its most satisfying function is that it allows us to exercise our minds. An artwork will establish certain boundaries by its subject matter, style, materials, and techniques. It then lets us observe and analyze thses givens by probing and musing. By finding its ambuguities, we can proceed in a game of speculation and interpretation."

Philip Yenawine

sesal

kesesalan

memakan diri

satu pengajaran

kadang kala

lupa

Penghabisan kali ini,

kau datang.

membawa karangan kembang

mawar merah dan melati putih;

darah dan suci

serta satu pandangan yan memastikan:

untukmu

sesudah itu kita sama-sama termangu

apakah itu cinta?

keduanya tak mengerti

sehari itu kita bersama, tak hampir menhampiri

Ah!

hatiku yang tak mau memberi

mampus kau dikoyak-koyak sepi

Chairil Anwar

West Coast Park

Saturday afternoon

Ini yang elok
bila mengenangi sesuatu yang muluk
tidak termangu mengintai keresahan
yang sedia mengintai dari bisik syaitan.

'kan sudah selalu diujarkan
hidup ini manis lebih dari haruman
kesegaran terhidu dalam gerak nafas badan
cinta berkembang dalam jalur kehidupan.

Sungguh begini cinta menjadi hakiki
terselam dalam Adam dan Hawa
kita keturunannya menjadi saksi
hidup berterusan dalam alam seluas mimpi.

Berbalik kepada renung mencari cinta
sejauh mana hujungnya hanya cinta
berkembang lebar dalam laut dan bumi
dan langit memayungi melindungi kami.

Masuri S.N.